Possessed for love!

 Work really hard to find in Beijing, demanding wage is not high, how big the gap with Shanghai so. Noon sister received a phone call to listen to her sister and father because of my things is very powerful noisy quarrel, my father said a lot of grief for her sister's words. my sister, my aunt now that Dad is too partial to my side, I do not know! But I think that is the subject of my father stimulation, a little bit of my behavior while difficult to accept, and worry about me, so the mood is very irritable. Anyway, today I really like them to trouble as well blame, if not for me, they will not trouble as it is today. now that I was guilty of the home, one after another ..... now I still can not face the state of them, but this thing because I am the sky, I should stand up to resolve. Since the last and sister fight over, almost no contact with, not because I had preconceived ideas about her, but my heart always has a knot is not open, do not know how to face her. In fact, I also understand that my sister is concerned about my behavior while, but in a manner not to I can not accept her concern, perhaps I do not know understand the feelings of others! this time I can not remain silent any longer, my sister was hurt because of me, hurt badly, I told her had been wronged, I should be to take all the fault! father as radical way, really is too partial to me? In short, they love me because the culprit was me, I should go to untie this knot!
passing roadside restaurant, there are marked write beat, that look very complicated, seems to want to dodge, it seems to go on and very visual. we just standing face to face, pass, there is no language, not speak. I do not know what he is feeling the moment, But I know I feel very sad ...... once walked the streets holding hands together, and now has become my walk alone, rubbing shoulders after a long wet my eyes, tears in his eyes, I told myself not to cry, be strong, in fact, should think of this Tianzao. But it really live up to expectations tears, did not stop the flow of ...... look forward to the taste of fried bread, fried bread can be returned to the house, but he is looking to eat the desire is gone, tears water to a block of fried bread to your mouth, think how fried bread so terrible, that the mouth is bitter, too salty not tell if bread is fried or my salty tears?
heartache, heart hurts! I thought I no longer care so much about, but I still proved to still care, still can not put down! I hate who I am and how you hate your weakness, why can not smart, proud away, Why should this be? God, why should it linger, since I met, acquaintance, friend, love can be so cruel Why separate us? I really love love him, I have thought, perhaps trying to start a new relationship, perhaps the wound to heal, but I always see his eyes, are also dream every night to him. This day is really so bad , and now I face with a mask of any person is, the real me, true feelings hidden, and only in the absence of the time will remove the mask, exposing true self, but that was me? love a person, for the love of God, hurt, love, the deeper the hurt the more true, I could not see behind the lonely self, but will not make you embarrassed. I love the enchanted, the heart was locked by you, but just sit and look at you and she came, I saw your people would see through your heart, is it that I love so much? you let go of my hand selected her hand, to pay your gentleness. And I want you to be happy, and I accept this result!