Experience the life of cancer

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AD 1991, is a very common human history of the year. When people next to the TV as usual enjoy the Golden Hall of Vienna's annual New Year's Concert, when a misfortune is quietly I approached. Continuous, regular high fever,cheap UGG boots, night sweats caught my toes. I had to put down the busy work, to the nearest hospital. At first doctors suspected pneumonia may be caused by smoking, tuberculosis or what, but After two months of continuous anti-inflammatory and anti-TB treatment, lung large fuzzy shadows dispersed, gradually reveals a clear outline of the tumor. The result that a physician had shaken the early to judge:  of a disease. recommended to the specialist hospital for examination.  to the Shaoyuan Zhang. Dean look after the film for me to make a firm conclusion:  said:  tumor surface like burrs, edge blur, and the location front. is a typical characteristic of lung cancer. need not be suspected, seize the time treatment it!  film is not necessarily too accurate, you go right biopsy pathology to be!  national reputation, renowned expert in thoracic tumors. It makes me despair and frustration.
Not complaining, my life can be described as ill-fated. ever since landing the moment, I have made friends, and .1958 of doom May, I was born in Henan, a transformation of the county right-wing secret family (his father was wrong 57 years labeled a rightist). in order to avoid political involvement, and grandmother just turned 40 in my day, took me to the northeastern province, has experienced 22 years of living no fixed turbulent life .18 years old, I encountered a lot of danger: 9-year-old privately swim, nearly drowned; 12-year- old slipped fell shelter, almost certainly have been killed, 14-year-old Wanda in logging in, almost children were killed .1978 smash gang of four years, the father of the right issues have been vindicated .80 admitted to the university on their own. After graduation, they assigned a good unit. While his hard work to the exhibition (the graduate seventh year), cancer, and heartless to me. At that moment, I am satisfied with 33 years of age.
bid farewell to the memory of Professor Shao home has been very vague. fear of my narration is not in that moment Qing professor has said. anxious wife so I did not finish, they hurry to pick up the X-ray film ran out. In the evening , his wife swollen eye from the outside back in bed without a word trance. eight years ago She was sent away to be as pro-girl like her uncle. It is said that the elderly lung cancer was obtained. Now, she also subjected her husband's fight against cancer. 【fact, as his wife, she had the anomaly of my body (the weight loss, heart, breath smelly, etc.) to the ominous foreboding. but dared not down to.】
woman's intuition is often can not be underestimated In 1991 March 14, after the Provincial Tumor Hospital of testing, I Center for the left lung was diagnosed with small cell undifferentiated carcinoma. the primary lesion 4 * 2 * 2cm. associated with supraclavicular lymph node. the first time , I did not see the inspection report (the wife afraid I can not afford a heavy blow, concealed truth), but the mere instinct, I have felt the situation worse. albeit a virtual certainty, the wife was unwilling to trust friends to biopsy to Beijing, looking at the famous cancer hospital pathologist Professor Li Tieyi mm301 review. Conclusions and Provincial Tumor Hospital, the general goes.
time understanding my cancer, is a blank. about how to treat it is a loss March 17 In 1991 , I was admitted to the Henan Tumor hospitals in the East Ward, the first test of the psychological experience of facing life and death.
most cancer patients are on their disease, have informed the ambivalence mm on both want to know, afraid to know. Because his wife told me blackout. eagerly learn the truth I, with mixed psychological, made inquiries to the doctor of hospital beds:
 small cell lung cancer. .  , I truly feel terrible cancer. As a patient,UGGs, a medical blind, I have no ability to refute. The doctor gave me the tips is: if the chemotherapy does not work, my survival is 6m11 months.
At that time, how I want peril Buddha present world, and give with their panacea, so that my back to life. Really, I have more than once on the day of prayer. Think about the kind of people in extreme fear and helplessness of the situation, and competent something? recall period of time, is the collection of their most enthusiastic people Pianfangyanfang the like. I've eaten Huaihua send small Yaomo Xupu Chiang, Northeast relatives send Cyclobalanopsis long moss bark walnut tree boiled eggs, Gynostemma grass, live scorpions and other so-called remedies. incurably ill patients have great courage, and after taking into account the risk of never. As to the question whether the effect of, or which play a role? Wucongkaozheng.
I was diagnosed on the last three days after the chemotherapy, and had never come into contact with things, but also understand the stakes do not know it. with patients in the chemotherapy ward one hung his head after the head down, make me feel confused:  Shares in the blood flow of the fire burning, especially the feelings of the heart, as if the candle is burning BBQ in the following. Jiubeng awkward mention that suck. No wonder the majority of patients will shudder to mention chemotherapy. In fact, chemotherapy destroy cancer patients is not only physical, but also their spirit. < br> half of the chemotherapy to the time, the Northeast's cousin passed a perk of the information is: The Chest Hospital, Beijing Datong for patients like me operation. She talked on the phone: , he can not do to say, do not give blind wasted effort.  treatment, decided to board a plane north.
hypoxia, or psychological, I suddenly felt chest tightness before boarding and had to lose In 1991, on Oxygen at 8:50 on April 7, a China Southern Boeing 757 plane landed in Beijing Shunyi International Airport. The plane for me,Discount UGG boots, not only the delivery of physical illness, it is hoped that the fire recovery. It saved my life is of strategic significance.
Beijing Datong County, 20 from several kilometers away. when the table is a common-law air force only a small cadre, but to me, he put a lot of effort. because physicians are looking to Shenzhen, we had the Air Force in Beijing Guest House to wait. There, I contacted by phone the university classmate and friend Xiaomou Beijing. He is an ordinary civil servants and state organizations. Shanxi school, we were a class partner, have a deep affection. because of the complexity and fragile emotions, I wan never come to see his request. on the phone asked him to say goodbye to the students in Beijing. At the time I thought it was doing life for a farewell, feeling that their life period of the point of impact.
The next day, we have the help of friends drove to the North Datong off. entered a famous local Beijing Thoracic Tumor Research Institute (also known locals Results Studies).
This is the construction of a 50's tuberculosis specialist hospitals. Wang shaped two-story gray brick building Soviet-style wards, giving a feeling of solemnity and depression (which may be the reason I am sick) is here, I first experienced a death in the face. I be arranged outside the second ward. As Director Zhao disease area has led the country come here especially for the patients, so it beds in the ward has been very nervous. After a brother in some negotiations, I squeezed into the observation room of the bed, be into the hospital.
hospital on the road too, is after the Yaocun. there lived a lot of cancer patients from across the country and their families. As the saying goes: reflects environment Everyday, by water draft. is to rely on rental houses to local people hospitalized patients and their families and get rich . But to return, said homeowners still pretty dedicated. at home around all the facilities are prepared for patients who had never been seen refrigerators .91 in Datong County in the urban fringe also not common,UGG boots clearance, in order to allow patients to store the food in the summer, they dug in their yard a cellar. I Yang Zhenhua 851 nutrient solution for a long time put in it, take it actually was cold, keeping really good results.
In order to prevent their own homes free, homeowners every day to end the Institute's front room to solicit business, I was the landlord in that case be brought back. I remember the landlord of the building for the post-kiln 67, owner surnamed Zhao. The old couple with a young son, a family of five guarding the six houses. two live alone, and the remaining four are leased. I am because it is  housing.